I Love Lauv

Modern loneliness, we're never alone

But always depressed, yeah

Love my friends to death

But I never call and I never text, yeah

"Modern Loneliness" - Lauv

My attempt at poetry inspired by my mentor poets song lyrics above^

In a room full of crowded people, drowned in the noise

Am I lonely or alone

In a room full of crowded people,

Does my mind get to

Reflect

Recover
Pick up the broken pieces

In a room full of crowded people,
Does my heart get to
Breathe
Do my eyes get to
tear

I started listening to Lauv a lot during the beginning of quarantine 2020 when one of my friends recommended him. At the time I just kind of listened to his songs mindlessly, like I did with most, just enjoying the way it sounded. However, recently when I was listening to his songs for nostalgia I realized I was actively listening for the lyrics and picking apart each word. This was most likely because I've been finding this song so relatable recently.

I always thought it was odd how it's possible to feel so lonely surrounded by tons of people, but now it makes a lot of sense. When I'm surrounded by so many people I feel the need to talk to more people, but in reality when I'm with more people I'm just a smaller piece of the bigger picture; that's how it is and it's totally fine. Sometimes when I'm surrounded by so many people I find myself dozing off into my own thoughts and reflecting on the days.

One day someone asked me what I think the difference is between being lonely and being alone. While being lonely is a sad feeling, I think being alone is truly nice sometimes. Although I love being with my family and friends the most, when I'm alone I can genuinely form a routine for myself, find what I enjoy, and work on myself. Even after being in quarantine for so long, I only recently have started practicing the joys of what I can accomplish and learn when I'm alone.

I guess I've learned that I actively listen to things when I choose to or need to hear it. Picking apart this song and responding to it with my own attempt at poetry has really helped me understand the concept of modern loneliness.

Plans from this fun week:)

 art museum🎨

such a cozy city despite how cold it was outside

lots of good food. Any chance this is ur pho shop Brandon?

went to a book store and kinda loved it?

good end to the trip